Episode 2
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CPR Certification…but make it online…with a toddler present. It’s honestly nothing short of amazing that the dummy even made it to the certification class. Per instructions, like the good little student I am, I had to make sure it set up properly like a week before class just in case it was defective and I needed to return it for a new one, so obviously that meant I was going to have to open it and assemble it, despite having Sid from Toy Story in toddler form usually within 3 feet of me during all waking hours of the day. But ALAS, it made it! I hid it on the top shelf of the closet in my spare bedroom to make sure of it…but it made it!
I was beyond worried when I went into class today. Yet, none of my fears were about the class itself. All of my thoughts looked like, “What if my son acts up and I have to leave the class to calm him down?” “What if he gets hurt and somebody thinks I’m a bad mom?”. I was so nervous that I almost canceled the class for another time when I could possibly get my mom to watch my son for an hour. All of these fears of being the “perfect mom” rushed in and almost stopped me for taking a class. How horribly silly is that?
Honestly, the class went over pretty smoothly. I set up my laptop and made sure the wifi was working and laid my CPR stuff out on my (very dirty) yoga mat outside on our little concrete patio—the only place at my house that doesn’t look like the Tasmanian Devil made his way through it—and let my son play in the fenced in play area I put together with a portable dog fence I found on Amazon because I’m too broke to pay to properly fence in the corner lot we live in (did someone say, “broke bitch #lifehack”?). Through the entire hour class, my son only yelled for my attention once, which was easily solved by tossing him a wad of gauze we no longer needed. Once he got that, I got another solid 30 minutes in while he soaked up water with it from his sensory table.
When the class was over the instructor told me he didn’t even realize my son was there and that we were the first class not to have a dog or child interrupt. He then suggested that my son should get to play with the dummy since he did such a good job. I laughed. Sir, my son is being held back by a fence made to keep in large dogs. He honestly would have torn that apart, much like some large dogs, had he gotten the chance. He also would have spent 99.98% of the class time with his face directly in front of the camera because someone loves looking at himself and being the center of attention in every conversation. I mean, I can’t blame him, he is the center of attention just about 99.98% of the time in our house.
With all that being said, I am officially CPR Certified (again) and ready to sign up for my Personal Training Certification and Nutrition Coach Certification courses. It feels like everything is slowly starting to fall into place. I don’t think I will every be truly/fully ready to start this journey, but I’ll be damned if I don’t give it my best shot! And to think, I almost threw it all away because I was afraid that somebody I didn’t know on the internet would think I was a bad mom for scenarios I made up in my head.
This is just your reminder not to let your fear of what somebody else thinks stop you from doing what you love (unless you love murdering people, then let’s just not do that). Stop being afraid of what could or couldn’t happen and take that jump. You seriously never know until you give it a try. Now…off to sign up for some courses!
***Stay tuned for more fun updates on my journey of trying to balance being a mom and becoming a Certified Personal Trainer and Certified Nutrition Coach on the M.I.L.F. mom blog… In the meantime, how a wonderful day you beautiful badass, you!